Sunday, August 1, 2010

confessions

#1
alright,i'm glad that i got usm...'cause at least homesickness isn't an issue to be concerned about...

#2
i miss the days where i can converse in english...am starting to feel overwhelmed by all this mandarin-speaking...
sure,there are a few people that can speak english with me if i speak english with them(i think),but personally i'm not close to them...i just don't feel relate-able to them...the only one that i feel comfortable speaking english to is a new friend of mine from selangor...but only because she initiated it so she could improve her english...
there are those that would show off their fluency by correcting other people's sentences or pronunciations behind their backs...don't know whether did they mean to show off or its just a habit...anyway i'm not comfortable with it...
sigh...i miss english...

#3
i found something that i fear,besides cockcroaches....LELAKI.
(not including my dad,bro,mr.haswani and edward)
maybe i've been surrounding myself with chabohs for too long that the fact that there are two different genders in this world...disappeared from my mind.
i guess i can say that i grew up mentally in a womenized environment,hence guys is equivalent to UFOs to me...
i don't know how to talk to them i don't know what to talk about with them i just feel very strange that they exist within my range of sight and i'm uncomfortable with them around.
you're probably laughing your asses off right now,but i'm actually quite serious about this...they frighten the hell outta me...
i should just stop studying and go live up in the mountains.

#4
i feel that sometimes,uni-life is more stressful than school life...
not assignment-wise,homework and paperwork i can handle...it's the students...
occasionally,they make me feel like,i'm stupid...
but it's not like they're snobbish or anything,'cause they're not,it's just that they way they study,the way they present their work,the way they handle themselves...so different...
so different that they made me compare their school to sggs...is there something that their schools have taught them that i'm not getting from sggs?
i feel...handicapped...
i think i'm short of something... :(
aman damai was right to assign me to an OKU room...i belong there...

#5
i'm pretty certain that my fat legs slimmed down a little and i lost a couple of LBs after three weeks in usm... ^^
...then the weekends arrived. ~~''''''

so,how are you today? :)

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