it's really frustrating when the only (barely) decent pictures you can take of yourself had to come from your own camera

        

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......okay, maybe not this one.

wanna know my schedule?

i'll tell you anyway..
simply because i have nothing important to blog about but somehow has a lot of motivation to post something..
(because if i don't blog, i'll hove nothing else to do for the next 30minutes but to study :s)
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monday: korean presentation
tuesday/wednesday: unit operations test
thursday: unit ops lab test
friday: polymer test.
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i wonder why do secondary school ginakias like to visit USM's library....
our books....you guys can read meh?
heck, i don't even read/borrow books from the library often...
and frankly, the library is a bit stuffy, with moldy carpet and ancient flu and fever bacteria...
i have the biggest& most convenient library ever: google.
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okay maybe their visit to the library further contributes heat, noise and germs to this chemical-infused space..
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yeeaaahhh i think i'll get out of the library now...
into the hall-sized fridge i'd like to call...Dewan Kuliah L.
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annyong.

guess what!

i loss 0.8kg today...YES. today....
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then i ate a mango,
a box(it was in a tapau box) of fish cordon blue,
and a few spoonfuls of bubur cha cha..(bubur..cacar...chacha...caca?.....nvm)
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i don't dare to return to the weighing scale now....
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so i visited a children's protection home today,
it's where all the abused/traumatized kids are sent to to get them to safety...
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i helped clean up a storeroom @@
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no i did not play with the children...
yes i know it's ironic that i went to a children's home and not interact with any child there.
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i guess i had cold feet,
it made me doubt myself.
what if they didn't like me?
i could ruin their day by just being there with them....
don't get me wrong, i like kids...
i just don't know how to initiate interactions with them,
since...i'm already struggling to interact with grown ups +___+
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maybe.....i shouldn't have kids in the future..
what if i went: O.O to my child,
and my kid goes O.O back at me,
and we'd be O.O-ing with each other all day long,
only to end the day with the child crying hysterically while screaming,'mummy don't stare at me anymore!!!!~~~~'
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O.O
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anyway, my family's adopting yet ANOTHER puppy..
american bulldog this time...
i guess my parents suddenly see the need to own a guard dog,
after Lucky left....
and because Lulu's aging...
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life is cruel, isn't it...
when you get to know someone,
he/she will start leaving you.
so you thought,'hey, time is precious.'
so you make a lot of friends, trying to grab the opportunity to get to know more people while you're alive.
but then, you might ended up knowing the wrong type of people, and ruined all the goodness you've had in you.
so...either way, you'd end up alone.
and when you finally died, you had to walk on to the next realm-whatever it may be-alone.

OMG!

I've figured it out!!!!!!
(you don't know what's going, i know, but it's something private, don't see the need to discuss it here)
happy KL is back.
*evil laugh*

raaandom question...

who decided to make dough into long sticks and cook them?
in other words,
why is there noodles?
is it because mankind got tired of stuffing food into their mouths by the spoonful...so out of boredom they made noodles/paste/ramen so eating can be more interesting....
because the sound of slurping seems more exciting than nom-ing.
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then eating noodles with spoons seemed ridiculous...
and hence the invention of chopsticks.
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i....wonder.
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but europeans don't slurp their noodles,
they twirl them into balls with their forks before engulfing the yummy elongated flour...
so what difference does spaghetti has, compared to macaroni and other kinds of dough-made food?
you know...since they don't slurp them like the japanese...
why do you make noodles if you're not planning to slurp them?!
(i'm serious.)
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but i still think that the japanese can be a bit too enthusiastic about the loud noodle-slurping thingy...
they're too loud.
then again, japanese are usually extremist anyway...
i think they're motto should be: go big, or go home.
be the best/most outrageous, or not do it at all....
which i kind of agree, to a certain extend..
because if you're passionate about something, you might as well excel in it,
or there would be no point of your participation in it, no?
so........slurp lo....slurp loud loud lo.
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the chinese have mee suah,
where we're encourage to slurp as lonnng as we liked, with the hope of not breaking the strand(s) of noodle(s),
to signify longevity.
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if mee suah=long life,
then doesn't eating mee suah= eating your long life?
so....doesn't that make our lives......shortened?
......hmm.
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i can't believe i'd thought about such things earlier in the morning, while gobbling up my bowl of instant noodles,
when i should be concentrating my mind on thermodynamics...(test this coming friday +_+)
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random random statement:
1) cucumber+lime juice= mind-boggling....
it tastes so wrong, so weird in so many aspects, it messes up my palate.....but strangely i still drink it whenever mum bought it...
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2) has anyone tried the Chicken Parmigiani from the Bumbledee western food stall(anjung budi)?
it's awesome.
just saying. XP

such dedication

who pokes her left eye with the mascara stick,

holds back her tears and frustration,

went off to attend her friend's wedding,

then off to some late night shopping with her mum,

then drives back home with one working eye,

camwhores as soon as she reaches home,

and updates her blog about her misfortune?

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random trivia:

i currently have 1112 camwhore-d snapshots of myself.

talk about obsessing over your own face.

(= ='')

TOL (thinking-out-loud)

1) my mouth is in sync with my car engine.

= engine starts, start singing with whatever songs the radio plays.

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i find myself struggling to keep my mouth shut while i'm driving...

it's like i NEED to do something else to release the stress i have from penang's famous reckless motorcyclists and idiotic non-penangite drivers. 

(i basically despise them,have a lot of evidence to back up my hatred towards those intruders.

i don't go all selfish and inconsiderate when i'm on the road, so why should you??? 

this is a very small island, driver any faster and more reckless you may just lose control and DRIVE STRAIGHT INTO THE OCEAN DAMMIT!!!!!! 

THIS IS MY ISLAND, DO NOT CHALLENGE MY DRIVING SKILLS AND MY PENANGITE PATIENCE!!!!)

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anyway,

driving can be very stressful sometimes,

so singing/making random noise is a defense mechanism i've developed against the possibility of me losing my temper on the road,

thus i need to sing.

too bad i'm not very good at listening though, and ended up singing gibberish most of the time...

but after a while i'll start catching up with the actual words in the songs,

and after a series of "OOOWWWHHHH" and "aaaahhhhhhHHHHH now i understand the song" moments,

i'll enter another level of noise making: memorization.

memorize advertisement lines, song lyrics, whatever that usually comes on the radio.

i have quite an extensive range of sounds and lines i've saved into my brain you know....

(yes, i'm proud of memorizing all these useless stuff)

example: *song* 1-300-22LAJU~ you call us we pick from you~~ (pos laju advertisement on flyfm = =''')

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yea.

but anyway, i've figured out a new line from Alicia Key's "If I Ain't Got You" today...
i love this song.

before this all i could sing properly was the first few lines of the song and the chorus, but nooooowwwww,

i know SOME of the verse XD

so i can sing it better the next time it comes on! boo-yeah!

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i especially love this line: "some people think that the physical things define what's within"

it literally blew my mind away when i suddenly heard what she sang so clearly.

it even made me press on the accelerator a bit harder than usual, 

i was too happy that i've got that line figured out.

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don't complain about me talking ****,

'cause i've told you,

driving is stressful for me at times.

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2) i'm not going home from tomorrow, until sunday morning.

gee....where should i go to settle my meals....

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3) my friend's getting married this sunday,

and i still need to find a "plus-one" to attend the wedding dinner with me.

*sigh*

i got tagged +_+

Once you’ve been tagged, you have to write a blog with sixteen random things, facts, habits or goals about you. at the end choose ten people to be tagged, listing their names and why you chose them. don’t forget to leave them a comment (”you’re it”) and to read your blog. you can’t tag the person who tagged you. since you can’t tag me, let me know when you’ve posted your blog, so i can see your weirdness.
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16 random things....you're clearly underestimating my entropy* 
(lol...geddit gedddittt???? entropy....hahahahahahahahahaha!!!......................................you don't get it = ='')
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1) i wanna swim. i miss swimming....so much.
2) i haven't been drawing for .....months...man i miss drawing too @@
3) i have chocolatessssss~~~~~~~~~
4) ............AHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAH!
5) yes. my 4th random thought was a series of 'HA's. 
6) my face is infested with pimples again. *emo*
7) i want to work for some dermatology company...so i can get free skin care stuff!
8) *entropy=the degree of randomness. .....er..tadaa.
9) i wonder when will my flute arrive....
10) shiny....shiny..flute...silver...long....shiny......likey.... *v*
11) i'm gonna go to Straits Quay this Saturday...need more puzzle pieces for my flat lego...and i want random new books to stare at.
12) it's been so long since i last wore my swimsuit....now i don't dare to put it on...what if my doughnut shows    :s
13) Big Apple doughnut.....yummmmmm....
14) do you know that a large portion of the ingredients used in macaroons are sugar and food colouring? it's way too over-priced. i rather bake them myself than to get them from bakeries.
15) omg. i miss baking too!
16) i'm gonna go play on my piano now~
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seriously...16...sup sup water nia la~~~~
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anyway,
i tag you.
yes, you.
don't look anywhere else, you.
i'm not gonna go around commenting "you're it". 
i'm awesome like that. *puke*
but since you've read my random thoughts, i want to read yours too...
so sendiri pandai-pandai go settle this k~
and don't try to pretend like i don't blog-hop ya,
i may know more than you think i know about many many things....
(ccccceeeehhh....scary lo hoh... XP)
so faster go complete this tag thingy already!~

ice

i've reach a point where i don't care about my performances in tests and presentations anymore...
i just want to get it over with as soon as possible.
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i don't want to study...
i don't want to practice my presentation...
i don't want to look at books..
i don't even want to think about my class schedules.
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i can't even rest/sleep in peace without my mind thinking about how many things i need to settle.
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i can't wait for tomorrow to be over.

i wish Hogwarts is real.

do you know how much time we could save if:
1) someone invented a portable toilet+bathroom
2)someone invented a portable bed
3) hermione's magical bag that stores everything actually exists.
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we can go to sleep immediately when we're tired,
shower immediately when we needed to take a bath,
have our textbooks with us when we need it, (mind you, i hate bringing a big chunks of paper everywhere, when all i need to refer to is 3-4pages of theories and pretty pictures)
have a variety of chocolates when we crave for them,
have my whole bedroom in the bag...
i could smuggle my pets in them....
that would be awesome.
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i might never have to go home again O.o

you know that you're a hot-blooded woman/man when...

 you can melt a toblerone bar in your pocket.

*random*
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anyway,
two days ago i visited the blood-donation booth in usm with my friend.
we wanted to donate some of our blood ('cause we're kind like that :P)
unfortunately, she turned out to be under-weight and i turned out to have low haemoglobin level..
low haemoglobin=low blood pressure=i have more unnecessary liquid in my blood than the actual blood cells=i could faint from trying to help leukemia patients =_____________='
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we came out, defeated.
so we had ice-cream. ^____^
actually, we weren't so keen on getting ice-cream, but there was a huge teddy bear right in front of the booth...
apparently they're having a lucky draw.
t&c: buy a cone of ice-cream, get the small little form/ticket thingy, fill up your details, put it into the box beside the adorable stuffed toy.
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i like my ticket number:

to those who doesn't understand it, 1314 literally means something like 'forever and ever' in chinese :P
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no teddy,but at least i got a cool ticket as a momento :)

wwwuuuuaaaaarrggh.

how can one do little things in his/her daily life and STILL feel so tired?
it's like my body has forgotten what it's like to go to school and do homework...
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do you know what have i been doing for the whole day today?
woke up...did some cutting and pasting(art again...for Buddhist society's exhibition board),
be a sloth and wander around the house aimlessly....then onlined..
did my LAK(Hanguel) homework,
go back to being a sloth again...
thought about how i want to do my LSP(English) oral presentation,
return to sloth-ing...
watched an english-subbed episode of Poseidon..
grabbed Lola while mum snips some of her hair-fur off,
bathe Lola,
blow-dried Lola,
combed Lola's hair-fur...
roll on the floor with Lola...
suffocated Lola....
went off to shower...
re-do my lab log-book ('cause my 1st version was too cakar ayam-ish)
ate dinner.
watched tv...
procrastinating when i should be doing my lab report (currently)
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i'm so tired.

i dowwan to study.

1)pitter patter pitter patter. whoa-oo-whoah.
2)there's a big chance that my english classes are ruined for me,the lecturer's attitude is...intense.
3)Lola woke me up at 8am today...what can i say,she doesn't like being away from me..
4)i tried to bribe my way to officially skipping a lecture (...no la..didn't bribe...consult ni :P)...effort failed =='
5)i have 2chapters of material chem, 1chapter of inorganic chem, half a chapter of chemical engineering, and a chapter of organic chem waiting to be read...then i closed-one-eye on them...convo week mar...
6)i don't like my new blogger dashboard...whatever it's called...i don't like how advance it looked..the old lady in me cannot accept the high-tech-ness
7)i realized that my english vocab shrunk. dang. i'm losing my identity.
8)still need to do two paper-mache coins.............lazy.
9)i sang very loudly the whole way to USM yesterday...i was alone in the car,of course.
10)i'm sun-burnt~ now i know how fair i was....kinda miss my old one-toned-skin...oh well, no singlet for a month~
11)thursday timetable: 8am one lecture, 9am one lecture, rest............4PM ENGLISH LECTURE FOR ONE STINKIN' HOUR. stoop-pit.

sew tyre-d

i have a knack for missing all the obvious signs in things...
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(now you ask: what are you talking about...then insert confused emoticons... :s O.o)
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i realized that i can never find things by myself.
i was supposed to get my ToT (training of trainers,program pimpin siswa usm) from the brand-new-and-swanky Kompleks Cahaya...
boy i wonder who designed the building...so mother-f...mother of the honey-bumpkin weird.
first i entered unit tajaan and asked for direction..
the nice guy in the office(i find usm staff to be quite pleasant,so far) told me that the office i'm looking for is in the building next door, on the 2nd floor...
so on i walked to the next building, feeling un-sweaty and nice.
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so there i was, at H21..
found the nearest flight of stairs and climbed to the 2nd floor.
EMPTY.
walk around, dig into more isolated corners,
TOILET LAI.
so down i came to the ground floor again...
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getting pretty sweaty now.
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on both my ways,up and down the stairs, there's this kind of office look-alike room thingy,
with quite a crowd inside.
they looked like 1st years to me so i thought, 'hmm,maybe it's something to do with registration stuff'
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officially hot and sweaty.
and a piece of leather on my left shoe came loose.
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so i was on the ground floor again,
went in to the pusat mahasiswa office,
asked the nice lady (i'm sure all usm staff are nice people by now),
and she told me, 'you just take the stairs right outside this room,to the first floor :)'
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IT WAS THE EXACT ROOM THAT I THOUGHT THE FIRST YEARS WERE DOING THEIR REGISTRATION WORK.
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i took 30minutes to accomplish something that should only have taken 5minutes to settle.
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like,
oh my Buddha.
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then i went back to the library to meet up with my friends,
only to find out that they need to head off to some students affairs office
which was located in front of the DTSP,behind the post office, on a hill, across the street from the library.
so i cooled down a little,
then went along with them.
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the office moved.
to KOMPLEKS CAHAYA.
*insert so-in-unexplainable-mixed-feelings emoticon here*
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anyway we went there lo.
got lost again,this time we went from H21 to H24.
man i hate the architect.
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after everything's settled, it starts to raaaaiiinnn~~~~~~
heavily.
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hot and sweaty and wet from the raindrops by now.
but don't worry, i brought my umbrella..
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i was planning to go home right after my 12o'clock lecture,
but i found out about a briefing that will take place in my school at 2.30pm.
then me no go home.
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then i had McD ^^
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came back in time for the briefing,
which only took 15minutes.
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it was 3pm,
i have another class at 5pm.
me no go home,again.
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spent my 2hours in the library,
then went on to the class,
another piece of leather in the middle part of my left shoe came loose. (mother...honey-bumper)
the lecturer was late.
and when she finally came,briefed us about the course outline,
we then spent about 45minutes coming up with a suitable time-slot to substitute our thursday lesson, since a good number of us have classes that clash with the existing slot.
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there was a short moment when it became slightly awkward for me in class,
but i don't want to sound like i'm bragging so i'm not gonna mention it.
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oh,then i got stuck in the infamous Penang-traffic-jam on my way home.
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that was my third day, second year and first semester in usm.

is it me, or are men in suits look realllly hot. O.o
men+suits+glasses=hotter...way hotter. o____________O
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heading off to buddhist camp tomorrow..
ohm-amitabha-ohm~~~ ^^

random question

i've always wondered, what if there's a telepath among your circle of friends,or your family...
and they've been reading your mind,your every thought, know all your dirty little secrets...
but never came up and tell you that they've been doing so all this time.
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how freaky is that?
certainly made me more cautious about things that pop up in my mind..

sin:

che panji~

(my ring~)

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*update*

science confirms that i'm more masculine than feminine.

prove: (taken from some random page that turned up in google)

RT: What is the thing about your fingers? It's on the Chemistry questionnaire.

HF: It's called digit ratio. In the womb, the brain is washed over by estrogen and testosterone. If you have a lot more testosterone than estrogen in the womb, it is going to build a longer fourth finger than pointer finger. If you've got a lot more estrogen in the womb, the pointer finger will be longer.

RT: What does it say about your personality?

HF: If you have more testosterone in the womb and you have a longer fourth finger, you're more likely to have musical ability, mathematical abilities, to be an engineer or architect or good at computer programming. You tend to have poorer social skills but be direct, decisive, ambitious, competitive.

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my ring ringer is wayyyyy longer than my index.

yes i tend to like music more than anything else.

yes math is kinda fun.

yes my social skills are non-existant and i like to say things straight to the point.

i hate to waste time thinking about making one stinkin' decision..intuition is very handy.

what's wrong with dreaming big???

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i feel so messed up right now..

dang it. testosterone.

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owh and check this out.

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WTH I HAVE MALE HANDS!!!!!!

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mummy what have you done to me.

sweet serendipity~

so yesterday i went to GP with Sin,

(CARS 2 WAS AWESOME BTW!!!)

and did some shopping...

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went back to the mall again today (ran out of cash yesterday :s)

..ran some errands (buy mask for mum, facial cleanser for bro,buy baker's cottage's new mooncake,accomplish my last mission before going back to USM)

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Watson wasn't open when i got there..at 11.20am or so...

apparently the shopkeeper's late...

all the employees were waiting in front of the store...

so i went off to Parkson (i have this RM20 voucher...it needs to be spent onto something asap)

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my God, do you know how hard it is to find a 20bucks worth of object?

it's almost impossible...

but i did found a pencil case after 30minutes of searching...

it was 19.90...

but then i brought it to the counter and right before i hand in the vouchers to her the cashier said:

'yang ni ada discount 10%...so RM17.90'

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TT____________TT wth...

2buck of money i can't touch...flew~

i bought it anyways...since i don't like other available 19.90 stuff they have there...

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right so after that i stopped by Speedy,just to waste more time, to ensure that Watson's open when i go there for the third time.

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guess what i found!

can't believe that it's finally here!!!!!!!!

*screams*

my 8months of waiting is over at last...

i heart i heart i heart heart heart the cd!

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there's even a card signed by u-know yunho in it.

*screams louder*
so sorry...my LD camera refuses to cooperate with me today..

this is the closest thing to 'clear' i could get.

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it's signed by freakin' u-know yunho...just so you know..

aingg~~~ ^^

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p.s: i got my ring...pretty... X)

youtube

my life is so boring right now i literally HAVE to visit youtube whenever i online.
there's isn't anything much on simpleplan.com as well,since pierre injured his vocal chord(or something) :((
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anyway luanlegacy posted a new video,on the topic 'school'.
i liked it.
click here if you're interested to watch~ ^^
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*update*
you know how a lot of people go like : 'girls' generation is the hottest girls group'..
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i don't like them much..they looked like a Barbie army to me.
(and i can't bring myself to call their songs,SONGS...they were not singing. ==')
personally i like Secret and Sistar..where they have normal girls there..
at least..girls that doesn't weigh as heavy as a feather. (yes,i'm jealous.)
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2ne1's really not bad,but i'm don't like the lady gaga style so much to begin with,so..yeaa..
sexy women with attitude&confidence are the best X)

emo...critical thinking..or pms

wounds heal,but scars remain..
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hmm.
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you know the feeling, when you suddenly feel all alone..
and the people you thought were by your side, disappears.
spiritually, not physically.
because humans,we're too affectionate to physically leave someone out of the blue...
so usually we'll stay by their side,but we're not actually THERE,
FOR them..
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i don't necessarily believe in ghosts, although i'm fairly terrified by them.
but i believe in the energy we have,
contained in each of our bodies...
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like how dogs know their owner needs them,
they sense their loved one's energy...
it's how animals connect to each other, without needing to speak.
it's how humans choose to stay with people they think they love.
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energy, soul, aura, vibe.
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i feel like going shopping with myself again...
they walls around me seemed like they shrunk,
like they've become a tunnel,framing the light that shines from the windows.
i can't even see the sun...
i feel...claustrophobic.