what's left of my 3000words for today.

do i talk too much?
no lerrrr hoh...
i do tend to speak on the wrong time though..
and ended up offending others...
i may be blunt sometimes...
some people say i talk too little...
i don't think that's true.
i do speak up,
but only when it is necessary...
over the years i've come to learn that,people,you and me and you friends and neighbours and you families (everyone), we like our words to be heard..
we want others to value our thoughts,
appreciate our ideas,
understands and share our joy and pain...
and i realised that i,actually like listening more than talking...
it's less stressful, 'cause i don't have to consider the choice of words to use in order to make my speech acceptable and not hurt anybody's feeling..
and i get to see things from other people's perspective besides my own...
there's a saying that goes 'less is more'...
once, my form5 math teacher taught us that 'it is better to be quiet and let the world doubt your stupidity than to open your mouth and confirms it'...
(she was reading Confucius while we do our math work)
i agree with that statement.
compromising maintains peace on Earth...
at least in Malaysia it does la...
nobody wants to see Malaysia fall into some white guy's hands again and Chinese and Indians being chased back to China and India...
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i find myself more comfortable with expressing myself with writing..
can i say 'i express myself better literally than verbally'?
'literally'...i think i've misused the word so often that i've forgotten the correct way to use it. :s
anyway, i like to write...
research says women use an average of 3000words perday...(which is twice the amount of words used by men in a day)
and i don't talk much,so obviously those words have to come out somehow right...
be it pointless or idiotic,
i.will.write.
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i think,
i choose people to talk to...
weird right?
don't know why...
some of my friends, we know each other, maybe have been in the same class of clubs...
i seldom talk to them...
ask me bout them, i'd say: oh i know her! she's nice.
ask me if i know her well,i'd say: oh i dono lo...we don't hang out wan..
ask me how many friends that i actually keep in touch
my answer: probably....not more than 10...
close friends?
hmm...probably...2 or 3?
there are some people that i naturally felt that we have nothing in common,
call it my intuition...
hence, we have no 'click'...
so i don't talk to them...
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a strange being,i am
normal discussion,don't talk...
no 'click', don't talk..
not close, don't talk..
tak kenal, lagilah don't talk..
so when do i actually speak???
ask my fwens...
but they may or may not know oso wan...
oh but i do speak quite randomly when i'm too tired...
say...after my bedtime/when i'm too sleepy...
my gay partner pointed that out to me...
i sang...talk crap...mumble...
that's about the only time that i do actually cakap voluntarily about nothing i guess
like i've said,
a strange being....i am.