i will be vain and state facts about myself.

will try to come up with 10 today.

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1)i mellow as i age.

the more i grow,the more i learn about the things around me.

and as i look back, i find that there really isn't much to get upset about.

every problem has a solution.

plus, there's always something worse than whatever mess that we got ourselves into,

so i try to look at the bright side.

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2)my tantrums, will always be like hell.

think about it, why do you call tantrums,as tantrums?

definition: a sudden outburst or violent display of rage, frustration, and bad temper, usually occurring in a maladjusted child and certain emotionally disturbed people.

i am disturbed. no doubt about that.

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3)i can't help but wonder where the heck did all the normal guys go.

seriously,don't you?

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4)i always complain about how shitty my day is, only to wake up to yet another shitty day.

so i guess i'll stop complaining,suck it up and live through it anyway.

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5)i eat a lot more these days.

wonder if it's the menses, or the unbalanced diet, stress, or i'm simply getting fat.

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6)i am an all-or-nothing kind of person.

when i start to work, i'll continue doing it until it's done.

if i were to commit to a project, i expect myself(and others) to stick to it and throw everything else unrelated to the said thingy aside.

i guess my problem is the product of my effort though,

since it's never quite up to par with my expectations. :s

and most importantly,

if it's not my responsibility from the start, don't even think for a second that i'll make it my business if you suddenly assign the task to me.

i am THAT selfish. yes.

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7)is 'hello',that important?

if i say 'hi', our day goes on as usual.

if i don't say 'hi', our day (still) goes on as usual.

so what's the point?

yes yes i know, courtesy.

but if i see you at the end of a hallway, or on your way to the WC,

should i chase after you, scream out your name, wave frantically,

just to say 'hello' and acknowledge the fact that you appeared into my range of vision for a short 10 seconds today,just because i should be courteous?

cccooooommmmeeeee onnnnnnn la.

a simple nod and smile works too you know.

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8)i, AM NOT, smart. i swear.

just because i don't get your results,

and i'm not failing my tests,

doesn't make me smart.

what we learn now,may not be applied in our careers.

what we learn now, is to obtain the expected range of numbers from a series of strangely related methods and rules designed so meticulously so everyone can get the same sets of digits that replaces the question-marks in the cleverly phrased 'teka-teki's with a full-stop.

they don't cure cancer, nor bring 7000bodies in Japan back to life.

so lighten up and stop spreading rumors that i'm something more than i really am.

the fact is i'm actually stupid and clumsy.

frankly speaking.

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9)i go home twice a week. and stay in my hostel 3days in a week.

many are jealous. i don't deny that.

i just don't see why should they be.

if you're attending school in your hometown(in my case, home-island),

and your house is about 20minutes away,

your family isn't broke and owns some sort of transportation machine(...transportation machine..hehhhheeeeehhh~),

but you still can't go home and is stuck in campus,

then yes. you may be jealous the hell out of me.

but if you answered 'no' to any of the criteria stated above,

STOP BEING SUCH A BABY AND GROW UP.

you may be homesick or bedsick or whatever weird 'sick' that humanity has come up with,

but it doesn't give you the right to be jealous of anyone in anyway.

compare yourself to the students in Japan, or Africa.

i'm not much better off than you anyway.

jealous of me.

really.

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10)i am a Buddhist.

no i am not a China-woman,nor Japanese.

i'm Malaysian.

yes i know mandarin,understands cantonese and fluent in hokkien besides english.

no i am not mute, i just have less things to say,

but i understand perfectly what you are trying to tell me.