moodswing

sometimes i wished that my parents had sent me to a chinese school,

or that JPA chose me to send overseas back in my SPM days,

or that i was born in a western country.

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it's tough being a banana.

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i hate being interested and being shut out of things at the same time.

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stop thinking that i'm different than any other chinese,

at least i tried to blend in,didn't i?

did i ever ignorantly speak english to you when mandarin is one of my many tongues?

did i ever cut you off when you;re speaking just because i feel like your ideas aren't better than mine?

was i ever arrogant to you?

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just because i'm quiet, doesn't make me an alien.

i did not grow up in a chinese environment.

i am a student of the government school.

i have malay, indians and PLENTY of banana friends.

i don't know shit about what you people talk about in your spare time, BIG DEAL...

you don't know what we bananas do in our free time anyways...YOUR LOSS..

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maybe i should just give up trying.