gone.

i hate realizing the fact that i'm falling behind in my studies,
and knowing that i couldn't summon enough will-power to smack myself into shape again.
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it feels horrible,
to not know what you're supposed to know,
to involuntarily spaced-out during lectures,
to not be able to complete an assignment all by yourself,
to not have a single clue of the things your course-mates discuss about in school.
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i hate feeling like a failure.
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don't know if it's the aftermath of having too much holiday,
or i'm just too used to this style of studying...nonchalantly float my way through one semester after another,
just like how i did it in the past two semesters....
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a part of me couldn't bring myself to realizing that i have about 8subjects to cope with this term...
unlike the past,where 4-big-chunks-of-credit-units were allocated to math(calculus & statistics),
all of my subjects this sem either costs me( yes...COSTS me...) 2-puny-units or 3-ok-lah-units.
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long story short,
i'm banning myself from facebook and blogger.
i can't stand myself,slacking in everything i do.
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two weeks, no status-updating, no poking, no personal messaging, no blogging,
no ranting about anything,anywhere.
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two weeks with just me, my textbooks, my SmallBook, assignments and foolscap papers.
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see you in.....2weeks.
*fingers crossed*
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p.s: if there's any emergency, please contact me via handphone :)