做自己

you can't always please everyone in your life.
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"why do you work during your sem-break?"
"why DON'T you work during your sem-break?"
"why aren't you interning?"
"why don't you take minor courses?"
"isn't that a bit too obsessive? studying only chemistry throughout your degree years."
"what if the chemistry thing didn't work out? isn't that the reason people take minor courses?"
"what's your back-up plan?"
"why are you so concerned about your project? relax la."
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okay, i get it.
i might not have made the smartest choices in life,
and i can be obsessive at times.
but i'm not obsessive towards everything, only certain things.
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i feel that life as a student is a short one.
you're only 22 once in your life-time.
you can only be one of the thousands of 20 year-olds entering universities once in your life.
and when my time as a student comes to an end, my 50years-life(assumption) as a career-woman begins.
so do my financial problems and the need for me to have a realistic 'Life' plan.
so what if i refuse to work for the time being?
so what if i refuse to intern?
and what's wrong with knowing what i want to do in my life, and thereby NOT wasting my time on minor courses that i have no interest towards?
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i find it to be a blessing for having a particular interest and the privilege to have a chance to make a living out of it.
i'm glad that i've already prepared a 5-years plan for myself even before i got my degree.
and i'm thankful that even though i may not have as much working/interning experience than my other friends and coursemates, i am able to help lighten my parents burden by paying my school fees and my expenditures by myself(with the government's scholarship+the rakyat's tax-money)
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i might not have spent my sem-breaks as "productively" as my friends,
but with an obsessive-compulsive behaviour,
sem-breaks are my time to rest.
i'm only human, i need to be lazy and normal once in a while.
so sue me for not part-time-ing and interning.
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everyone has different plans for themselves,
because everyone lives a different life, grew up in different environments.
i was not born and raise in the same environment as you are,
i do not know what's in you mind, nor you i.
since i don't judge the decisions you make for yourself,
it's only respectful of you to reciprocate the deed and respect my decisions i've made for myself.
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"don't pretend to be an expert in my life when your life is as a tangled mess as mine.
at least my tangled mess is color-coordinated."-TKL
(p.s: i wanted to quote ghandi or mother theresa...heard one of their quote the other day and it was quite good...but i couldn't find it somehow, so i quoted myself instead.)