of egos and assholes.

It takes a big person to be a truly successful human being.-TKL
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yes i like to quote myself.
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sometimes i wonder why is it so rare to find very successful + famous malaysian,
you know, to boost our country's popularity,
"mengharumkan nama negara"...so to speak..
there's Dato' Michelle Yeoh....Lee Chong Wei...and then..............
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so anyway,
just when i was wondering why is there so little good, famous fellow rakyats we have here,
i came across someone who's not extremely successful,
but has his own little innovative(-ish) product,
probably getting somewhere in his career,
with an ultra-big ego and a horrible attitude.
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then i understand.
it's not like we don't have talented, innovative people...
it's just that those who are getting there,
somehow couldn't really reach the top...
probably because of the shitty personality they possess.
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it's one thing being good at what you do,
it's another to be a straight-up good person.
i think the latter is more important than the first.
what good does talent bring you when the whole world thinks that you're an ass?
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i'd rather have a nation filled with good-natured, helpful, kind, honest and hardworking citizens,
than the whole country of lazy slowpokes and a couple of talented bastards that find pleasure in making other people's lives a living hell.
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that's one thing that i've realised over these couple of days.
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the second thing that i thought about is how my generation of youngsters is the boundary generation.
boundary for what you ask?
well...boundary of respect, and common sense..
in my days,
children respect their elders,
juniors respect their seniors.
this seems to have diminished in the minds of young people today.
don't even bother comparing between those born in the 80's to the 90's to the Y2K babies.
it's already obvious (so obvious it's blinding) between those of my age, and those who are 1-2years younger than us.
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it kind of made me feel...insignificant+useless+bad+sad+frustrated.
i grew up respecting my seniors.
nodding at them, then looking down at the ground as we pass each other in the hallway,
sometimes don't even dare to pass in front of them.
giving them the privilege to make decisions before i do.
and if i'd ever need anything i'd ask them as early as i can,
worrying that i may be a nuisance if i asked at the last minute/ wait for them to ask me what i need.
but when it comes the time for me to be the senior,
i realized that i was repeating all the same behavior, TOWARDS juniors.
i respected my seniors, but no one's gonna respect me in return?
what is up with that?!
sure, i'm pissed.
but they don't seem to get the point.
like, wtf.
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it's a very complicated feeling to put into words.
if i were to complain,
i'll need to start all the way from the beginning,
and might have to teach them the proper way to respect their elders on the way.
that would be too tiring.
fuck that.
fuck all of that.
i'm graduating next year.
i'll let the karma solve it for me.