infection.

i'm doing everything that i'm suppose to be doing.
rest.
don't push myself too hard.
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i'm not doing nor planning on doing anything crazy.
my schedule is reasonably packed,like everyone else's.
i don't have to be at two places at once.
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so what went wrong this time??
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i took my medicine when i'm supposed to,
i sleep if they made me drowsy,
i don't take too much fried stuff/sweets,
i tried not to stay up too late.
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why aren't you leaving me alone???
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i have no idea what time i slept last night.
the last time i checked the clock it was 12.44am.
it felt like the coughing went on for hours,
leaving me little time to actually get some sleep.
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i don't know if i'm thinking straight anymore,
one-half of me wants to cough as hard as i can,
maybe even considered coughing up blood if it'll make me feel better.
the other half, worried.
worried that something bad will happen to my throat if i do so.
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doesn't bring the slightest feeling of comfort,either way.
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i don't have the mood to do anything.
all i'm asking for is a some peace and quiet.
without the coughing.
without the fatigue.
without the urge to down the whole bottle of cough syrup and the pills.
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i need it to stop.
i need it to stop now.