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pretty much sums up what i'm currently feeling.

it could be, an emoticon,

or the expression we use in programming that means 'equal'...

'equal' would signify my indifference towards programming and C++ right now.

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it's not like i loath it up to a level where i rather swallow a whole 20-feet python than studying the subject, no, i'm not that desperate yet.

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but i'm getting sick and tired of wishing people 'good luck!' and 'all the best!'...

wth...

we all know that those are simply empty words spoken out of courtesy because it's about the only right thing to do when everyone's all stressed up about exam...

if only luck actually comes upon wishes...

when i wish you 'good luck',

good things actually happens to you DURING exam...

i.e: you know exactly what to answer in your question papers,

or, the questions that came out in your paper are actually past year questions that you've tried out while preparing yourself for that said paper.

now that makes saying those wishes worthwhile...

but that's not how the world operates now is it.

which is why,

i am sick of wishing, and getting wished 'good luck!' and 'all the best!'.

== ...foot.

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i don't study a lot,

i study up to a point where my brain just can't take in anymore intelligent,factual crap i have to read up from the textbooks.

then i start to seek places i can release some tension,

before needing to go back to that same ol' blardy page of that blardy book and continue to stare blankly at the words on it until i go temporarily blind.

now,

what ticks me off here,

is that when i'm relaxing,

which usually means facebooking lah,

friends would come and try to shoo me back to my books.

'go study la, exam d, fb smr'...

okay, fine.

so i went back do some exercises.

then, another may say something like,

'you study too much, missed out on a lot of things'.

== what am i supposed to do,

since i'm not welcomed anywhere right now.

threaten to suicide and start up some rumors ar?

'ssshhhuuudddduup and let me waste time or i'll slit my wrist hard with my matric card i tell you!!!'

hah...like that'll get some attention.

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pimples don't come swarming onto my face all the time,

but when they do come,

boy do they make such a grand entrance to my pitiful life.

it's like mobs, my pimples.

they stay quiet under my skin,

and when they've finally collected enough members(bacteria and what-nots),

they attack.

like 100year old volcanoes.

swell up reaaallllyyyy nicely and big,

and doesn't give you any chance to pop it since ''it's not ripe yet".

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i have three of these, surrounding my lips.

which is very frustrating considering the fact that i wash my mouth everytime i finish eating.

yo pimples!

why you grow there la!!! kacau nia!

i can't help myself but meddle with those bumps,

which in turn slows down their "riping'' process and dries up that whole area involved.

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no i'm not happy with these!

not happy at all!!

so don't wish me 'good luck!' and 'all the best' and shoo me off to study!

or i'll squash you like a puny slimy bug! (in my dreams of course,but your face will be on it! i guarantee!)