while you sleep.

we can't always be the ideal person we wish we could be,
nor the perfect person others think we can be.
we can, though, be ourselves.
and hope for someone to realize the good things that we possess,
and embrace the dark side we never showed to anyone.
one.
.
we can pick and choose all we want,
judge everyone all we like.
fantasize about that perfect person we would end up being with in the future.
but do we remind ourselves of the limits of reality has to offer?
do we reflect upon ourselves, and where do we stand in this judgmental society?
we judge, but do we know we're judged.
we label, but do we realized we're labelled.
are we that great of a person to deserve the one we imagined we'd be with?
is the one we'd imagined, what we really want for a companion?
two.
.
it's about two individuals,
yet there are friends and family around.
then there is school, activities, career, and our lives' plans.
in the midst of all that we might forget how and why did we end up there in the first place.
we're always planning ahead, always forgetting to live in the present.
standing so close to the edge, just to live for one more day,
because we don't know what life has to offer us tomorrow,
i guess that's what being human is all about.
one thing's for sure though, we're not in it alone.
three.
.
.
i remember one good friend of mine,
she told me,'khawlin, somehow i can't imagine you being with someone.'
it was something so unusual to hear that it's stuck in my head for 3years now.
at some point of my life i'd even believed that statement,
and opted for a life in solitude.
.
there were guys that came...and gone..
flirtations, and late-night talks...
.
then there are those weird ones that scared the living hell out of me.
O.O
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but then, there came you.
.
i admire your nonchalance to the things i thought and tried hard to conquer.
i like how understanding and dependable you are.
i appreciate the fact that you gave me space.
and i adore how patient you are, settling into my hectic, yet mundane life.
'respect you mah~', you said.
impressed, i am.
and i applaud you for that.
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i love how diverse our backgrounds are.
how different our childhoods are.
how contrasting our schooling days are.
so different, yet compatible.
makes me wonder how life can be so magical sometimes.
.
i love your smile,
i love your hug.
i love the way you look at me,
even if sometimes your staring makes me feel awkward. :s
i love the way you hold my hand,
and how well they fit together.
so comfortable and secure,
makes me wanna stay like that forever.
.
i'm glad that everyone is happy for us,
your friends and mine,
your family and mine.
for what is a healthy relationship,
if it doesn't get everyone's blessing?
.
i don't know how our road will be,
nor do i dare to make a prediction.
but i know this, and i'm very certain about it.
you make me want to cherish the times i have with you,
to live in the present, grab the moments i could've missed out before it's gone,
and put it in my memory, under your name.
i wake up happy and looking forward to my day, everyday,
because of you.
thus,
there's really only three words in my mind to sum up what i really want to say,
but i guess you've already figured out what they are.
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p.s:
i don't know if you're reading this or not,
but if you're not, then it's your loss~
'cause you'll never make me repeat all those things i've said above~
yes.
i'm romantic like that :P